This was too important to Him... He has let me go...
I will always love Him more than anything on earth... But He would not let it go...
I told Him I would do it whether I wanted to or not, just to keep Him, but He said that He would always be able to see that I felt bad about myself afterwards, and He wouldn't let me do it... There was no way around it, no way that He would let us get around it....
You cannot even know how terrified, how much in pain, how borderline hysterical I am...
I want to scream, yell, cry, scream some more... I want someone to shoot me and get rid of this horrible, horrible pain....
I think Amethyst will go away for awhile...
Just the sight of my own blog reminds me of Him and I cannot bear that right now...
I love you, Sir... and to think, I never had the honor of proudly telling these people who you even are....
I will always love Him more than anything on earth... But He would not let it go...
I told Him I would do it whether I wanted to or not, just to keep Him, but He said that He would always be able to see that I felt bad about myself afterwards, and He wouldn't let me do it... There was no way around it, no way that He would let us get around it....
You cannot even know how terrified, how much in pain, how borderline hysterical I am...
I want to scream, yell, cry, scream some more... I want someone to shoot me and get rid of this horrible, horrible pain....
I think Amethyst will go away for awhile...
Just the sight of my own blog reminds me of Him and I cannot bear that right now...
I love you, Sir... and to think, I never had the honor of proudly telling these people who you even are....
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Today was my 12th day in a row at work... I'm running a store that isn't mine... I'm stressed to the max, and now the only thing that was keeping me sane is gone... All I want to do is sleep...
I will contact you, D'Anerah, thank you so much....
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